Archive for June, 2011

June 22, 2011

You wanna see pics of my fatness? AKA…time for change.

Monday Mike and I will start our journey on something I hope we can stick to together. We are embarking on the Couch to 5K nine week program. I tried it before with girlfriends, but they were already runners and he is my best accountability partner and motivator.   I have never run in my life, people.   As a kid in gym class I would claim cramps or injury to get out of running laps. I never played sports at all.  Running is like drinking water. Boring.

However, to reach my goals for a healthy, fit, mind, body and soul…this is now something I need to achieve.  My hope is that I will learn to love to run.  There is always room for wishful thinking 🙂  After reviewing the Couch to 5k plan I feel confident that this is something I can succeed at and is a good way to get my cardio up to speed so I can burn more calories, get fit, and lose weight.  I can’t even DO Power 90 right now because I am so out of shape.  Hopefully I will be able to do that with more confidence after the 9 weeks.  

The idea is that you run/walk in intervals, three times a week for 9 weeks. Mike and I are going to do Monday/Wednesday/Friday at 6am.  There are a free podcasts on the internet, but we went with an app for our phone that alerts us when to switch from running to walking or vice versa.  And it runs Pandora or our own music or radio in the background so we can both listen to whatever music we want.   We just have to synchronize when we push “start”.

I just got to the point where I was sick of feeling icky and making excuses.  Someday won’t happen if your body gives out. So I might as well fix it now, while I still can.  So I decided to DO IT.  And we start Monday. Along with dietary changes of course. In addition, we are also doing Michael Thurmond’s 6 Week Body Makeover.  In 9 weeks I hope to see a new me.  I am also taking before and after shots of my body.  I won’t post now, but when there is a significant change I will add them on here. Hopefully you get to see the fat me in shorts and a tank top soon!   THERE is something I never thought I would write…but then again it will be next to a new and improved me. FINGERS CROSSED!


June 16, 2011

Comfort Food

Whew!  Life has been so hectic for me lately!  It feels like I have been bouncing from one thing to the next.  I like to be busy, but it hasn’t really been busy as much as it has been a little problematic.

My grandmother, my dad’s mom, is ill and can’t live alone anymore.  So, she has moved in with my parents.  They are taking care of her and we are all trying to help get her house cleaned up and out so it can go on the market.  Emotions have been running high in this situation.  If you know me you know some of the challenges here, if you don’t, feel free to ask me.

Tom’s car was damaged by the hail storm we had several months ago.  He took it to the insurance booth and they said it is totaled.  Great.  So, our options are to keep it and they give us a salvage title making it almost impossible to ever sell it or trade it in…or…turn it into the insurance company for a piddly amount of money.  We decided to turn it in based on information we had.  Situations changed and now we need a car for him.  We are currently searching for the right car at the right price.

I am working on getting my daycare squared away for the fall.  Which kids will stay, which will not?  Some good things have happened in this area in the last couple of days, so I am optimistic that it will be good.  I also need to build my Pampered Chef business up again.  It has been neglected and I am ready to bring it back to life.  Who wants to party with me??

I have had some health issues lately.  My heart has been racing, having palpitations, and skipping beats.  This started a month or so ago.  I have been through many many tests all coming up normal.  For the last couple of weeks I have had none of those issues and have been grateful.  Today I woke up with them.  Heart racing, skipping a beat, and making me catch my breath.  It is exhausting.  It really zaps the strength right out of you.  The helpful thing is I have been able to put a few things together about the two episodes I have had and I think I may have an answer!  There is one medication I took in common with both times this started.  So, I am going off this medicine immediately and I hope this clears me right up.

Now that I have aired the things on my mind, this blog is about FOOD, right??  Lately dealing with life I have been craving comfort food!  I want things like spaghetti with pesto, grilled cheese with ham and tomato, macaroni and cheese, etc.  What about you?  What foods do you crave when stressed?  Do you reach for sweet or savory?  I am a savory girl.  I do like my sweets, don’t get me wrong, but I crave a good meal.  I love to eat.  I have posted my recipe for a shrimp casserole (I used chicken broth instead of vermouth) that I make that always makes me feel good.  You do the same!  Share your recipes for the foods you love!  Thanks for reading!


June 9, 2011

Being alone and feeling alone are two fundamentally different things. AKA – I missed the season auditions…again.

I love my kids more than a glass of merlot and a free cheese plate, but it’s amazing how lonely motherhood can be. Or..ONLY motherhood.  Before the big move to the great white north, I had a relatively small social appetite. I like dinner parties, having a few girlfriends over to watch bad TV and the occasional large group hang out at a local karaoke establishment. Now it seems that lacking this large group of eclectic souls surrounding me I am stuck home cleaning and preparing and driving around while the kids are out doing their things and the hubby is fishing.  Mind you…this is my SECOND summer of this. Maybe I should start with the fact that the online presence of the theatre community is severely lacking here in Fargo. FINALLY…after a year of waiting for the local musical theatre company to post their auditions, I found it a week late. And they audition for a whole season at a time. Meaning I have another year of nothing. So completely disheartening I can’t even put the words together quite right.

I suppose there are those moms who would say, “I’m with my kids all the time so I could never be lonely!” Those moms are either crazy or lying. At least that’s the way I see it.  I’m not REALLY alone. I always have a tag along of some sort. I long for “me time” on a regular basis, but I need my OWN things. Time spent doing the things that feed ME. I know this sounds selfish, but we make sure all of our kids have ample opportunities in the way of extracurricular activity, so why should it be any different for the parents? No matter where we live, my husband will always be able to fish. And I am certain SOMEday…I will get into theatre here, but in the meantime I would like to whine about it. So thanks for letting me.

And I really shouldn’t be feeling this way…on the heels of a week with my bestie and her family. Regardless of the weird weather that has decided to descend upon our globe this year, I had a relaxing and fun time, but was sad to see her go. Or at least hug her quickly before she departed after I had fallen back to sleep. Not that I would let her know that at the time. I let her cry and I cried later. It’s my way. 🙂

So in the meantime I will continue to call, text, email and facebook with her. And…drive my kids to the bazillion things they have going on and live vicariously through them. Of course, things will change…in the blink of an eye, as they say. Until they do… it’s a daily struggle between the many true joys of motherhood and the sense that I’m the only person in the world who knows how I feel.